I really just hate this feeling. It’s the worst feeling just sitting there in class and realizing that everyone around you would in no way be effected if you weren’t there for class or you missed a couple days or weeks. You want so badly to be able to walk into school and have a group of friends to walk up to or sit with and just talk before school or during lunch or even between classes. You want so badly for a text to pop up on your screen when you’re not there just to check and see if you’re okay or if you’ll be back tomorrow. And it doesn’t just end at school. Sitting home on Friday and Saturday night while all your class mates are at parties or each other’s houses and you’ve texted someone to make plans and you don’t even get a reply. Eventually you just stop trying. The people you used to hang out with become distant and eventually they stop replying too. And then you’re just left feeling alone questioning how much you matter. Every day this happens and every day I can’t wait to just go back home. You lose the feeling of being wanted or needed. There is so much I wish I could put in words about how this feels but I just don’t even know how. Standing there feeling so alone even surrounded by people, it’s almost a sickening feeling and I just want so bad for it to go away but it surrounds me. The more it happens the more I want to go back to old ways. The ways that took all the pain away and some days those feelings win and I dig in. I want to cry out for help but I don’t know where to turn because I feel like no one will understand.
SOMEONE FINALLY SAID IT
So if a teenager is at school for roughly 8 hours, and they are doing homework for 6+ hours, and they need AT LEAST 9 HOURS OF SLEEP FOR THEIR DEVELOPING BRAINS, then they may have 0-1 hours for other activities like eating, bathing, exercise, socializing (which is actually incredibly important for emotional, mental, and physical health, as well as the development of skills vital to their future career and having healthy romantic relationships among other things), religious activities, hobbies, extra curriculars, medical care of any kind, chores (also a skill/habit development thing and required by many parents), relaxation, and family time? Not to mention that your parents may or may not pressure you to get a job, or you might need to get one for economic reasons.
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also filed under: reasons high schools copy homework and cheat
i made a graph of my personality
i edited it to fit mine i hope that’s ok
liquor before beer youre in the clear
beer before liquor youll be okay dont be a little bitch